Ending in disaster...

Good morning! Yesterday ended in disaster as far as I'm concerned. The upside is that I finished 576 calories under my daily goal. The ONLY reason this happened is because of the good choices I made for lunch and breakfast. The problem is I made the choice not to go walking like I should have, despite multiple opportunities.

So, lets break it down. Yesterday I went home, changed clothes and went to pick up Jake. From there I made a quick stop to pick up my new glasses (which look good on me, but I am having a hard time adjusting to them) and then to Cane's to get dinner for the Shipp's (a friend who's father died this week and we took them dinner before the viewing). After dropping off the food I went home and put my clothes up and then...slung my fat ass in the recliner and pretty much stayed there for the evening. The only time I got up is when Kelly said "Go get me some Chinese food". Now, don't get me wrong...I'm not blaming her for the dinner choice. I could have easily told her we need to get something else or even gone somewhere else to get dinner. But I LOVE Chinese food so I didn't fight. However, what I did do was get Chicken Fried Rice rather than the normal General Tso's Chicken which was a "healthier" choice. I also had a spring roll and some of Kelly's Sesame Chicken. Yes, I did log all of it and still came in under but I feel bad about the food choices I made.

The lack of exercise is the other fail. Like I said before, I had multiple opportunities. The biggest disappointment was when Kimmy (sister in law) came over and asked to borrow one of the dogs to take on her walk. Jake jumped up and said he'd go with her. What did I do? NOTHING. The thing I don't understand is why. Why didn't I peel myself out of the recliner and away from the television? It's not like there was anything interesting on. I had convinced myself that I was getting used to my new glasses by reading and used it as an excuse not to do anything.

Okay...time to move on. Today is a new day chalk full of opportunities to make better decisions!! No excuses. No cop-outs. I CAN DO THIS!

But what can I do? What are my goals for the day?

Josh has a game today, so I have to get my walk in before then. So, once Josh is home from school I will walk the 1.4 mile route around my neighborhood with the dogs.

Today will be a great day!

And so it begins!

Welcome to "The Quest of a Fat Guy". I decided this week that I was going to commit to actually losing weight. No more excuses. I stepped on the scale last week and found I am the heaviest I have ever been. Today I weighed in at a whopping 393.6 lbs. Holeeshit! 

So, I started by re-downloading Myfitnesspal and began logging my food and thanks to my Fitbit, my exercise as well. Incidentally I was 1,299 calories UNDER my goal. I thought that was pretty sweet! 

I know everyone is different, but weight loss for me should be simple. Eat right and exercise. Like I said...simple. Right? WRONG! I am completely addicted to food and lazy as hell. It's not just eating a hamburger, it's enjoying everything about that hamburger. Knowing this also means that I know I have to stop thinking of it like that. Food is merely a means of taking in nourishment...at least it is for me until I can learn to control it. As for the exercise part of it, I have to adopt the old Nike slogan and "Just do it!". 

So, yesterday I did...kindof. Normally I would have gone home after work, kicked off my shoes and put my fat ass in my recliner and done nothing. On the surface it sounds nice, but that means I'm not doing my part around the house, the dogs don't get walked and most importantly I'm not burning off the calories that I took in for the day. Yesterday was a step in the right direction. When I got home I changed clothes and started cleaning. I got through the kitchen made it to the living room where I got it picked up but then sat down to pay attention to my spoiled dogs. That was it. It was all over from there. The good news is I didn't spend the rest of the night there. My son had a baseball game (they won!) and I was at the ballpark for an hour and a half which got me in a couple steps more than I normally would have. It was more than normal, so that is a success in my book. 

Today is panning out to be pretty good. This morning I got to work at about 5AM and of course I didn't eat anything before I got here...I mean, I love food but even I can't eat that early. Unless I've been up all night that is. At 9:30 I realized that I was getting hungry and REALLY wanted McDonalds or Chick-Fil-A. So, I got in my truck and started driving...painfully past McDonalds...even more painfully past the Chick-Fil-A and went on to Smoothie King. The good decisions continued and I got a Lean1 Pineapple and Mango Smoothie (510 calories) and a Chocolate Muffin (183 calories). The mental trade off was I got the muffin so I could have something to chew. Either way it was far fewer calories than I would have gotten either way, so again it's a success! 

This afternoon when I get off work I plan on going home, changing clothes and taking the dogs for a walk. I know they need it and definitely deserve it. 

When I started logging what I ate on Myfitnesspal I also looked at the Community boards and found one for motivation. In one of those threads someone posted the excerpt below from the Wall Street Journal. After reading it I realized it totally applied to me and figured it would be a good final thought to this post.